UNWRITTEN

End of the year thoughts, is so cliché and it's so not me. I hate norms. I don't do norms or clichés. Don't get me wrong, words for the end of the year are not bad, but its absolutely not like me to put it up for others to read, maybe in my diary for my eyes only but not on a social media.

One phrase people kept telling me all year was; "Mayowa, live a little!"... Yea, you'd think I'm grey and old. But I'm not I am a beautiful vibrant young woman with her whole life still ahead of her well at least 2/3rd of it.

Not sure how this is going to turn out, but go with me . . . so about living a little. Truth is they are very right to say that, I have been living like a hermit for a while now, keeping to what is familiar and safe. Now words mean a lot to me and I don't utter them carelessly, so I figured the best way to live the one day left of this year is to let my thoughts form into words unbridled, and what comes to mind now is Natasha Bedingfield's  song "Unwritten"; hence the title of this piece.

My year hasn't been the best nor the worst, I haven't had life shattering moments or bone crushing trials as you may think, but in my own way I have had a fair share of what the year had to offer. Expectations not met, hopes lost, love unrequited. But through it all, one thing I have learnt is to love myself. Let me tell you a little bit about me. I am special . . . yea yea. I know everyone says that about themselves, but believe me I have never believed or said it out loud about myself until now. It's like the movie "There is something about Mary". Ok quick summary; it's about a lady named Mary off course played by Cameron Diaz, who had this thing about her that makes everyone who comes in contact with her fall in love with her or just drawn to her, and her sweet, bright disposition was a bonus. If there were to be a remake it will be "There is something about Mayowa minus the sunny, sweet disposition.  Being played by Cameron Diaz would be perfect, not to brag but I've been told several times that we look alike. Point is there is a quality about me that draws people to me despite the fact that I work overtime not to be nice. However, I realized some things are just the way they are and the sooner you embrace them the better. Not to sound so self-absorb, this year I have come to truly love me just as I am, to embrace all that I am and developed a burning desire to explore myself until I attain my fullest potential.

So for 2014 I just want to say thank you Lord for I am fearfully and wonderfully made, inside and out. Thank you Lord for all my flaws, ups and downs because every experiences, mistakes, beauty, ugliness, strength, weakness, success or lack thereof; all make up the Smart beautiful woman I am today. I might not fully understand it all or appreciate me yet, but I am learning to love me and I am grateful for it.

To my family you're not the worst...for all your eccentricity, I wouldn't trade you for any other family in the whole wide world, you are the best...wink***I love you all very much (I know this is the first time I'm saying it, so savor it well).

To my friends who have been there with me through this year, it's been an amazing journey I know I was cynical, boring and sarcastic most of the time but thanks for putting up with me, the year won’t have been the same without you.  For all those I let down, what can I say; I'm not the nicest person in world hope I'd get the chance to make it up to you in 2015. And to all those who left me hanging, you have missed out on a good thing.

And to that special one, hmm . . . I know I could be a handful with my weirdness and all but I can promise you I am a bundle of joy and delight . . . Can't wait to see all the amazing things God is going to do through us together in 2015 and the years to come. I love you so much already.

Lastly to you reading this, thank you so much for letting me live even a little in 2014 through these words. I know this is a start of something great.

A PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!!

Written by:

Soyemi Mayowa. O. 

Architect

Interface Projects Ltd

(Design + Builds)